Caleb wants a Baby

Feeling a bit empty and have lots on my mind. Can't really think of much to say, let alone have any of it make sense. Want to do so much all the time, I constantly feel like I am chasing my tail. Tonight is mostly gone and I haven't done much of what I wanted, the time has just scooted on past. Hmm, what did I do today.

This morning was our usual playgroup. It was *crazy*. The kids were all pretty happy and a little hyped up. It was all good, just full on. It was really warm, what is with that? Anyway, Zali is changing and growing and developing so much at the moment - the last few weeks have been huge. She was waving her hands around when we were singing songs, really listening and getting involved. She also tried to chew on a table and chair throughout the morning, and loved that she was covered in glitter when attacking the craft table. Her body is changing also. When I cuddle and snuggle her, she is losing a little bit of baby fat and still getting taller.

Both kids went to sleep on the way home in the car. Oh my gawd! I snuck inside and ate lunch and opened the mail and little things, waiting for them to wake. I couldn't start scrapping or anything cause I was just *waiting* for one to wake, I mean, they do not sleep at the same time, and in the car?

In the arvo we had a little visit to Janene and Miss Amy. Janene's mum hadn't seen my kids for ages, and I wanted to check out how they all were. Janene looks good, but a little tired. Amy was snoozing - oh the sleepy, laying still, early days of fresh smelling babies! Kadey had grown heaps (their beloved dog) and looked so much older. Angus is still full of beans (the other dog). Their new house renovations look nice, more open and fresh. I wouldn't expect anything else, Janene has good taste.

The cutest thing though? Caleb got to cuddle Amy! I thought it was so adorable (my fingers crossed Janene wasn't freaking out having a crazy three year old boy holding her precious newborn!). He sat on the lounge, legs out and sitting up straight. Amy laid on him, his little arm went around her, and gave her a little pat. It was all good, Caleb behaved very well. When Janene went to lift her up, Caleb didn't want to let go, he clung on tight. He had scored a baby and wanted to keep her. He had some more cuddles and then let her free. Someone asked 'Caleb, do you want baby?' Yes he said. He was told to come home and tell his Daddy he wanted a baby.

It was very cute. Oh, and I think Caleb should be allowed another baby. Wonder how Miss Drama Queen Zali would handle that!

Hmm

Does prioritising sometimes do your head in? Or maybe wanting to put the things you want to do up high on the list, when you know there is things maybe that aren't as fun, but really should be high on the list. Sigh. Lots on my to-do list this week, most of them are the same as last week though. Aren't too many crossed off from last week. Sigh.

Market was quite chilly this morning. Caleb woke up at 4.45am and strolled into Grandma's room, just before she got up to wake me up. Doh! The three of us hit the markets together and he scored a 'warm' chocolate.

I cannot believe this week will be August. The year is being gobbled up before my very eyes. Plus I know four birthday's happening in the first two days of August. Hip-hip, hooray!

Her Name

Amy Louise Tealby.

ALT.

Be nice to your parents.

Can't wait for more cuddles.

Happy Birthday Miss No-Name

What a lovely day I have had! I got to meet Little Miss No-Name Hillhouse-Tealby.

Janene and Jim are the proud parents of a lovely little girl born Thursday, 26 July 2007 weighing 8lb 3oz (3.71kg) and 53 cm long. She has a *mass* of dark hair. I can really see a cute little hairclip coming her way!


Poor little dear is scratching herself with her tiny fingernails. She has some little mittens now, so hopefully her little hands are steering clear of her face.
I absolutely love their little scrawny legs. Doesn't take long for them to get some chubby to them.
The proud family. A little family of three. Noice.
Miss No-Name was hungry, I was butting in to take some photos - does she look hungry to you? Proud Daddy Jim overseeing in the background.
A sleeping baby - always a perfect picture.

Good luck to my beautiful friends as they start their journey of parenthood. I think they will be great parents and that Miss No-Name is a lucky little girl. Except for the fact they won't give her a name yet. I think they are being nasty to all us hangers-on *dying* to know!

Enjoy your Friday night. I've had my cup of tea, now off to scrap some of Zali's birthday album. Kisses

Oh My!

There is going to be a new baby tomorrow. Can't wait, I am *so* excited. Am really looking forward to some newborn cuddles. Will let out the details tomorrow!

Today I had some cuddles with five month old Kaelan. He was so light, after lugging around my nearly one year old. How funny will it be to hold 3.5-odd-kilos. Better pick her up lightly, don't want to be using too many muscles and fling her across the room! Thankfully her Mummy won't be reading this, she has other things on her mind . . . like pushing a watermelon out of a straw.

Caleb enjoyed a day playing with Riley at kindy. You know how the little devils can be very adorable sometimes? Caleb came downstairs after brushing his teeth, both arms wide open and gives me a hug 'I u Mummy' (that's what his I love you sounds like). Round to the dining table where Zali is waiting for her weet-bix, gives her a big cuddle 'bye Yaryee'. Off he toddles to the doorway, waiting for Daddy to take him to Kindy. He was very adorable. Sometimes I have to steal cuddles and kisses. When they are given freely, it is very special!

Going to make a card for the new baby now, then off for some much needed sleepies.

Ride

Monday I must have been smoking something. I decided to brave the shops with the kids. Hmpf. First shop Zali starts whingeing cause she is ready for a sleep. I strap her to me and rock her to sleep. Caleb lasts a little while, then I bribe him with a little Hot Wheels car to play with.

Turned out not too bad, didn't accomplish much, but the kids had a 'ride' each. Zali had a ride in a trolley (I know, not that exciting), and Caleb . . .

well, Caleb got to ride in the Big Red Car! How exciting! Not by the look on his face, that is for sure. As soon as it started moving, he dropped his bottom lip and had a puzzled look on his face. When I teased him about it, he would smile at me. Who knows what goes through the mind of a three year old boy in a cool red car?


Tuesday we had playgroup and we took out some leftover party food to share. Tuesday afternoon the kids drove me bonkers. Oh, and I also realised that it was photo day at kindy. I realised one hour too late. Devastated would be the best describing word.

Today Caleb enjoyed another day at Little School. Everything is going really really well. He waltzes in, excited about the day ahead. He is happy to see the teachers, happy to run over to the computer, happy to be there. He jumped on a little trampoline, threw me a wave and a 'bye Mum' and continued on his merry way. When I picked him up in the afternoon, he was sitting on his computer, next to the teacher on his computer, having a ripper time. The teachers tell me he is used to the routines now and is telling them the routine if things are going to slowly. I am very happy that he settled in quickly and is liking his Little School.

Zali and I went to playgroup around the corner this morning. It was us, Liz and Sabrina, and Shan and Paige. We had a good old gas bag, and the three girls had a nice quiet play. Ok, Zali wanted to eat anything from the garden or anything in her path, but that is all part of her learning. After our lunch, she had a big sleep in the cot - great stuff. I got to play with my scrapbooking . . . yippee!

I am working on a little album for Zali's birthday. I also have another two albums lined up ready for some attention, plus another few projects in the pipeline. I need some more hours in the day, just to devote to scrapbooking. I think that is a necessity in life.

We had some lasagne and salad for dinner tonight. What did you have?

Oops

When Caleb is out playing at a park or somewhere fun and it is time to leave . . . sometimes he gets cross and doesn't want too. I have to bargain (or bribe) him, or sometimes be a grumpy Mummy.

Today, when I put Zali back in the pram after a short play in the park, she got cross and didn't want to go back to the pram. She was having fun on a big swing, she was going to get cross and not want to leave! Oops. She won't listen to bargaining or bribing . . . yet. Lucky Caleb wanted to walk and she got the big, sitting-up-high toddler seat at the front of the pram. I think she thought she was pretty cool up there. Phew.

Not?

Busy day, but not. Very sluggish today, seemed to be doing things, but not really? Hmm, clear as mud!

Didn't make it too the markets this morning (shock, horror!) cause I had a shocking migraine and felt like I was going to throw up. Eck. I moved myself down to the couch. I had to rock Zali so not to wake the other three kids (Caleb, Campbell and Finn) who were still sleeping. It is a pretty sad picture when you need to rock a sleeping child, while quietly hovering over a giant blue nappy bucket, in between holding your pounding head. Quietly.

I am feeling much better now. Slight headache but nothing like earlier. Thanks for asking.

We had a photo shoot this afternoon with my side of the family. The kids had an early lunch and all went to bed. The idea was to make sure they were slept, fed and happy. When they woke up we gave them more food. It was a mad rush to get ready, and we raced off to meet the photographer. Rachel Richter rocks. Her lovely husband, Mark, was her helpful assistant. They make it look so easy. We were running late, and I had to wipe Zali and Caleb's faces when we arrived, and be on boogey watch for the photo shoot. Nice.

Can't wait to see some photos, but Rachel already posted a couple of photos on her blog. Check it out. http://rachelrichter.blogspot.com/

Again. She rocks. And I love my kids.

Caleb did run around like a crazy man throughout the shoot. Is it the fresh air? Whatever, least he was happy.

Sheree, David, Campbell and Finn left for Nan and Pop's place tonight, and are heading back home tomorrow. Safe driving, kisses and hugs, and thanks for coming to see us, party and smile.

We came home via Maccas for a coffee and some snacks. That turned into an early dinner.

I need to clean the kitchen and dining room and vacuum after Caleb's party, but that will wait until tomorrow. I am tired and should be in bed. Um, do I say that everyday?

There isn't a great deal to clean, but I need to tidy and re-organise our house to normal every day living. Take photos of all the party bits and pieces and presents. Pack a party food bundle to take to playgroup, there is SO much leftover food. I need to share the sugar.

Hope you enjoyed your weekend. Sleep well.

Happy Birthday Caleb!

My dearest darling little boy, you are now three years old. Three very long years, but also, they are gone so quickly. Here are some snapshots of his wonderful day.

Caleb had a Thomas the Tank Engine party! Wow! There was Thomas and trains everywhere, including little chocolate trains in everyone's take-home goodie bags.

Caleb's Nan made this wonderful 3D Thomas cake - chocolate of course! Thank you, it was a wonderful job.
We had a few turns at blowing out the candles, cause it was fun and to give others a turn at blowing them out. At one 'blow', Riley blew more of a shower (ew!) than wind! We had a good laugh.
The cake was a winner! Caleb's cool Thomas shirt was a present from Grandma. He got heaps of fantastic presents, and lots of noisey ones! Caleb scored more Thomas trains and tracks, books and bags. Zali got him a rockin' whipper snipper! He was a very lucky, loved and spoiled little boy. I think each time he opened a new present he didn't know which one to play with!
This is an action shot! The boys were having a great time on the swings. From left to right, Campbell, Finn, Caleb and Riley. We all enjoyed a few games - pass the parcel, treasure hunt, playing with toys, the swings and slide. I think everyone is very tired and will sleep well - fingers crossed!
Little Miss Zali had a pretty good day. She got this new jumper from the beautiful Mel and Brent - just cause. It was starting to cool down, so she wore it straight away.
Caleb, we love you very much. We hope you enjoyed a wonderful third birthday, and have a rockin' year to come. Tip for your future - always be good to your Mum!
Okey, bed time. Very tired - three year old's can party hard! Markets in the morning.

Phew

What a day! Caleb ran into Little School, happy to start another day. Happy to play, and happy to see his new little friends. Loving that, it only took a few days for him to feel comfortable and enjoy. Much different to last Wednesday when I had to push him in the pram and toss him out, and then walk out with us both in tears!

Zali still not well, but she had some decent rest today. I have just been wrapping presents and organising some party stuff, and writing a list of stuff to work through in the morning. Cause . . .

Caleb's birthday is tomorrow. We are having a small party with his 3 year old friends. I am thinking a few of them will be enough to whip through the house like a mini tornado. Family is coming, will be a crazy weekend. Okey, look at the time! Really need my beauty sleep (hey! no wise cracks!) to be able to get through tomorrow. Am hoping to get abbo fabbo photos, my fingers are crossed for that, and will share so you can enjoy too!

To-do

So much to do, so little time. When your child is sick, your time just vanishes. This week is going so fast (but when she cries it is forever) and I have so many boxes to tick on my to-do list before the end of Sunday. One thing at a time, keep that in mind.

Do you know what Caleb likes to do?

Jump. On/off anything at all. He loves jumping on the bed, every night we say no jumping on the bed. His bright eyes just see - wahoo, a huge soft place to jump, wahoooooooo.

Through his eyes, the world is probably one huge jumping castle. How wonderful to see such fun in simple things. We all need a bit of that.

Have you jumped lately?

sheesh

What a day. This morning we had an appointment at the Wesley Hospital for Caleb to get his new arm splint. Thankfully we arrived a little early, Zali had done something icky in her nappy. And it was a 'sick' icky. Everywhere. Coming out at her legs and right to the top near her belly. I hope you aren't eating right now. Cause I am sharing all my exciting news here!

The new splint is stronger and larger. Caleb is older and stronger and bigger and can handle a fiercer splint. It has foam for support, it has trucks, it is all pretty and clean and new. Wonder how long that will last? Will have to take a photo of it while it's looking good. Caleb wore it all day and didn't have any issues, all good. All good.

The rest of the day is the part that was yucky. Whingeing and whining and crying and crying. At one point i had both of them sitting on me, crying their little hearts out. I think they were working off each other and needed to calm down. Caleb had a vegemite sandwich and he picked up. Nothing worked for Zali. Oh, did I mention she broke out in spots today?

The nurse at our GP's office said it is most likely a viral infection and this is getting all the toxins out and presenting as spots. Her temperature is coming down, and last night she did sleep better. We were thinking she would be on the mend. She started to pick at food, and drank some water near the end of the day. However, she cried all day for me.

The bath was the only time she didn't cry. She loves the bath, and tonight enjoyed it again. She did go to sleep ok, so fingers crossed she has a decent night and wakes up a new little princess in the morning. Puh-leeeeeeeeeeease!

Deep Breathing

That is what I have done a few times today. Just take a breath. Miss Zali is still sick. Totally. Miserable. As for the daytime, today has been worst so far.

It all started with high temperatures and no energy on Friday night. She got lots of cuddles and attention, she was very sleepy but had trouble shutting off.

Saturday wasn't too bad, until the late afternoon and high temperatures came back. She slept awful that night, I was awake for ages trying to settle her and when I did sleep it was continually broken trying to make sure she was alright, covered with blankets, comfortable, etc. I was up at the normal 5am to go to the markets after not long getting back to sleep. Zali slept in till 10.30am!

She has the sad, sick, watery type eyes. Sunday was pretty miserable, and she was very upset in the evening and would not sleep unless I was cuddling or feeding her. Again high temperatures kept her company. The night dose of Panadol was brought up, she didn't get the pain relief she needed. We spent a lot of time trying to get asleep. Two or three times during the night she woke up and cried and cried, she was in pain. She was up early this morning, and still had a high temperature.

We got to the doctors at 11.30am. Nothing. Everything checked out ok. Nothing he could put it down to. Great?!% I was worried it was another ear infection, but they are pink and healthy. He said there is a chance of a urinary tract infection, but it is hard to check on little girls. Great?!% If nature takes its course and she improves, then yippee. Otherwise I have a backup script for anti-biotics.

I am thinking that we will get little sleep tonight, and I will be filling that script. She cried and cried and tossed and turned and whinged ALL afternoon. She is totally miserable and making the rest of us this way. I feel so bad that she is not well, but when it goes on and on, it is *very* tiring and wears me down. When she tosses about in pain or misery, it takes a lot of work to keep her balanced and not flipping back onto the ground. My lower back is acheing.

Right now, I am taking a break. I need a break for my sanity. I can hear her being upset, she is with Daddy, Caleb and Grandma. She has lasted for a little while ok, but she must be getting tired and wanting Mummy again.

Tell me, when you are stressed, tired and/or miserable, are you the type to eat . . . or not? I am the type that eats, and all day I have wanted to eat. I have tried to keep a lid on it, but the constant crying from a sick little girl (and at times her mother) makes me head toward the cupboard to see what is lonely and wanting to be eaten.

If you are going to answer with 'no, i *so* can't think about food with I am stressed, tired and/or miserable' then leave now. While you still have all your limbs. I *totally* don't want to be your friend right now. (Maybe tomorrow though, so don't go too far!)

Talking about food .....

Have you seen Dippin Dots?



It is icecream! We had to try it when we were at the Crackerjack Festival at Carina in June. We tried some snickers flavour and something else. Oh yum! They melt in your mouth. It was yummy and fun to eat. If you ever see it, you should try it. They had heaps of flavours.

Better go and make my cup of tea, I think I better take this sad little girl to bed. I think it will be a long time before either of us gets to sleep.

Big hug to you . . . because I need it back.

Bit Sick

My little girl is a bit sick tonight. Still been off, I think I have said that for a few days. Today she was still miserable, sometimes would eat and sometimes not.

She has high temperature tonight and is very unsettled. She isn't upset or crying, just not sleeping and half talking to herself. She is liking company, and is tired, and wants to sleep, but isn't. I came down to get the thermometer to check the current status. Adrian is keeping her company.

Might take up some panadol to help her get to sleep and monitor that temperature. I am really tired, and need some sleep. Not sure how much I will get tonight.

Caleb went to bed very nicely tonight, very exhausted after three days of kindy for the first time ever. He was at Little School again today. Was much happier, but did get a little upset when I left this morning. His report for the day said he was the star student! He has made a friend. He slept and ate a little better. Things looking good.

Better go and give my bubby some cuddles. I bit sad she feeling yucky.

Take care.

Scrap Royalty

On the June long weekend, there was a big scrapbook convention at the Brisbane Convention Centre. I enjoyed a wonderful two days there. That is right, two days without the kiddies. I felt a little naked without someone hanging on to me. I felt so *naughty* doing something frivilous (sp?) for my own enjoyment. I am a bad girl, spank me. Ooops, wrong channel!

I wanted to do some classes, learn from new people, pick up hints, tips and new ideas. I attended three Making Memories classes, two Basic Grey and one Pink Martini. I had such a great time. The teachers were all American (there were Australian teachers as well, just not the classes I picked) and were fun. This cool chick here (middle) is Margie Romney-Aslett from Making Memories. She is the Creative Director and gets to design all the great products. She rocked. She had fabulous ideas and a cool-dude laid-back attitude. She gave away *heaps* of prizes and the class packs were to the brim with great products. The other cool chick is my friend, Liz. We went together on Sunday, and I went by myself on Monday.


This is Liz and I with Kelly Goree. She works with Basic Grey putting layouts together. Not sure of an official title. The classes were really good, had to keep pace, but the end result was a fantastic layout, a cool little matchbox album and a chipboard album. She only gave one or two prizes away, and I was lucky enough to score one at the last class of the day!



Kim Kesti taught the Pink Martini class. Made a little chipboard-ribbon accordian album. She was bright and fun. However, she called me a redhead? What is with that? Was there bad lighting or am I colour-blind?
Basically I was one of the twits who asks for a photo after the class with teacher. At this sort of convention though, all about photos and memories, well, everyone likes and appreciates the addiction of photo and memory keeping. I fitted right in!

My beautifully pregnant friend, Janene came over for a visit today. She just started maternity leave this week and is catching up with friends while she can. I told her some pointers to remember about hospital. I hope I didn't scare the pants off her, or confuse her to the point of explosion. She bought over some scones, date or fruit. My, they were tasty scones. Fresh, soft and very tasty. Very thoughtful.

Zali is a little off. Not sure if there is a toothy going to start harassing us again or what. I applied some bonjella tonight to see if that helped, she was very restless going to bed. I am guessing tonight might be a little disturbed.

This arvo I organised more photos. I want to visit Harvey Norman with their 15 cent photo for 15 day special, and get a heap printed. When Zali woke up she joined me in the study for a while. Until she started eating paper, or tossing paper in the air, everywhere, it's a spotty kind of day. Ooops, that is a playgroup song!

Caleb was very happy to see me when I picked him up from kindy. We took the detour through Maccas and got him a cheeseburger and milkshake for dinner (mainly cause I wanted a coffee) and got some 50 cent icey-creams. Grandma got brain freeze trying to get rid of the mountain of icey-cream off two of them, one each for Caleb and Zali. They only get a little bit of the good stuff and then crunch on the cone. Caleb ate his well, then passed it back wanting his milkshake. Zali thought it was heaven. She was basically breathing it in - so funny to watch . . . where is a camera when you need it. Hands too I suppose, mine were on the steering wheel. At all times, I promise. By the time we pulled into our driveway, she was kicking her legs and talking away, squashed melted cone sitting pertly on her purple with white dots (read: plain purple, but now showered with smears of white icecream) jumper. I think she was high on sugar! She enjoyed herself very much, so that is most important.

Off to sort some more photos for printing. Enjoy your day. And shout yourself an icey-cream!

First Day of Little School

Very exciting. Caleb started his kindy program at Narbethong today. (The school used to be called The School for the Blind, that probably gives you more information as a title!) Due to the fact he already goes to 'kindy' (child care at Cannon Hill), we are calling this 'little school'. So our day today . . .

He got up when Grandma got up, and came and woke me about 6.30am. This very cuddley dressing gown is very soft to touch and more soft to cuddle, and accompanies the Bob the Builder slippers.


He had a 'little milk' with Grandma (Yukult), so was ready for vegemite toast and juice for breakfast. 'Ready?' he asks after that.

Off to little school we go. Does he look a little worried here? Oh, I need to add, this little boy is a bit sick. I think it probably was not the *best* timing to be having his first day, but he got through.

When we initially checked the place out, he had a great time playing with the other kids. He is used to going to child care and playing and being away from us. It didn't even enter my mind that he would mind being left. He did. When I said goodbye, gave kisses, I love you's, Mummy and Zali are going now and we will be back to pick you up after your sleep, he grabbed my hand and said he was coming. I had to walk out, and he started to cry. Always very hard for a parent to leave, but I was strong . . . I lowered my sunglasses, and *then* walked to the car crying . . .

There was a huge drum to belt. I reckon he liked that (just a bit!). He liked outside play with the pre-school kids. When I picked him up the teacher asked me if he liked computers (a big Yes!), and that he had computer time. Wonder what computer time is for a 3 year old?? He also had a fantastic play with some high school students who came to volunteer. Supposedly he was running around playing with them having a great time. Bet they were worn out! I am not exactly sure what happened at rest time thought (see below). Both his teachers said he had a nice day, after initial hesitation. I am hoping things get better when his health improves also.

Pick up time, and Caleb sees me. I wanted to get a photo of his happy expression when he spies me. That happened way too fast and he ran to me, *obviously* extremely fast by this blurry photo!

Mummy was *very* happy to see him and have cuddles. He doesn't really look like he wants them though?

'Mummy, home?'

'Did you have a fun day, Caleb?'

'Yes.'

He was very hungry. Didn't seem to eat much at little school. Not sure if it was the new surroundings, or the fact that he is unwell. He had a snack while I sang along to Hi-5. After a few minutes the rear view mirror showed this picture .... I am not sure if he slept at little school, this little boy looks pretty exhausted to me.

Zali and I went to playgroup to, um, play. And talk, of course.

Other than that, we went to KMart to pick up a few supplies. Caleb had a chocolate bar and wouldn't share with Zali, Grandma or me, even when we begged.

The kids played with a capsicum while I made their dinner (we don't like them, but the lady at the markets insists on putting a few in our shopping). Baths, some jelly (pronounced 'jey-yey, cause 'l's' are like a 'y'), and bedtime. They both went to sleep fast after a big day.

I know they are ours, but I love them dearly.

My Sister - The Birthday Girl

Happy Birthday to you, dear Sheree. Hope you enjoyed your day and loved your presents. Another year down already though? My, they are shooting past so fast! He he.

Man, if you can't bag your older sister about age, who can you? And she knows I love her. Big squeezey cuddle to you.


How funny is this! There were a few photos like this, all with eyes closed. Here, we have eyes open, and Campbell is doing a big booger pick!


Sheree is loved by her hubby and two little boys - the loves and light of her life. Their happy little family.


Happy Birthday to you, my dear sister.


Other than this being a special birthday, this was a damn hard day! My little *angels* got more, erm, *angelic* as the day progressed. I think there is some sickness knocking on our door, with some more runney noses starting, some coughing, some misery, some tiredness and some crankiness. And me going even more bonkers.

I bought a couple of those Sudafed plug-in things, like a vapourizer? They smell really nice. Will see if the kids come out tomorrow any different. Fingers crossed. Kathleen from Hi-5 says they are good. Better be right, Kathleen.

Can I ask you what party food do you like? Especially if you were a kid? Help me.

Not impressed. Not impressed at all. The big catalogue sales. Is it just to suck you in. Is it just so you buy more and/or different stuff? Does it also give you the crankies?

The Big W toy sale started last Thursday. Not sure if it lasts one week or two. I think everything I wanted is gone. I visited on Sunday and had a browse - the toys nearly take over the whole shop! It is quite overwhelming, especially when you have no idea where to start to look for the things you want. There isn't a rhyme or reason in organisation, so I think it is pot luck if you stumble across your desired purchase. After trampsing down numerous aisles and back again, I realised that heaps have been sold and I am looking at leftovers! Not impressed.

Today I went back with my two angels ($%!) armed with a new list. Yep, nothing. Not impressed. I bought some other stuff though, mostly crafty things to play with the kids. Actually some of the things I don't want to share, I think I would appreciate them much more. Must I share, really? Like, a really cool colouring book with invisible pens. You colour, and after a short wait the colour appears! Loving that. It is hard to keep in the lines when you can't see where you have already coloured, that is a trick I will have to work on.

Hmm, this shopping trip, is that mission accomplished for me . . . or the Big W shareholders?

Haven't been to KMart yet to check them out, but I hear differing stories about their stock. Need to go to check out little cars. For little boys.

Okey, need to do a few jobs so I am leaving you with some old photos. How cute! These were the days when I could take Caleb to work (for a one-off contract) and he would lay on the floor playing with toys, and be charming. He would have some milk, and nod off to sleep. The cycle would be repeated and we would head home. It was a breeze.



However this morning at Carindale? Well, Carindale Shopping Centre is swahilli for 'Caleb's big playground' I have found out. He stood tall at the front of the trolley like Leo Decap in Titanic and pretty much behaved while shopping for Huggies nappies on sale (yahoo!) and then after his Bertie Beetle, he 'mummy out now'. Well, out he did. He loves to explore and run. And not watch where he is going. I think at one point he played peek-a-boo in the aisles in Big W and used a roll of wrapping paper as his light saber with some Luke Skywalker moves.

Oh they grow too fast!

Last few days been busy. Friday there was an email from one of my favourite scrapbook shops, they were having a 25% off everything sale. Cha-Ching! I thought I might venture out for a drive and visit their actual shop at Caboolture. I loaded Zali in the car (who was due for a sleep) and off we went.

Zali slept all the way, and I even sat behind a slow truck so she could sleep a little longer. I gave her lunch, and in we went. She lasted about 2.5 minutes before getting cross at being trapped in the pram, when there was so much exploring to do. In between looking at the products, I was trying to pacify her with attention. I would cuddle her or she would play with wrapped ribbons and my sunnies, or crawl after me if I made a quick getaway to the supplies while she wasn’t looking. She also had some mummy milk. By the time we got through it all, we were leaving the premises at 2.45pm! Oh my!

Traffic was already starting to build on the Gateway, and the bridge itself was a crawl to get over. Zali had another sleep, and we scooted past kindy and got Caleb.

It was afternoon tea time, and all the kids sat down and ate cruskets with vegemite or cream cheese. When they are finished they can go and play. Most kids had 1 or 2 and ran off to play. Caleb was still sitting there with his hand up wanting a third crusket. Must have been a hard day at kindy!

After the kids went to bed, I sat in the study and just played with my new scrapbooking goodies. Just nice to touch and hold. I was too tired to do anything with them.

Saturday we decided to go to Toowoomba for the day. Firstly to Telfer’s to see the family and had a yummy lunch of home-cooked pasties and sausage rolls. My sister-in-law Teagan informed me they were made with low fat pastry. So, like, doesn’t that mean I can eat double the amount? No? Hmmm. It was Nannie’s birthday last Tuesday, 3 July – she got a nice navy recliner chair.

The kids had a nice play with Nannie, Pop, Uncle Kewy (Kelly), Aunty Teagan and Uncle Awex (Alex). Caleb ran straight into the clothesline and had to come up for a cuddle. Zali attacked a pot plant and had that red dirt all through her nails.

After that we scooted out to Crows Nest to see the Adams. When we arrived, Uncle David and Finn were just going for a walk down the backyard, Aunty Sheree was baking muffins (chocolate chip marble – do they sound low fat low calorie and healthy? *surely!*) and Campbell was sleeping. It will be my sister Sheree’s birthday on Tuesday, 10 July, and we got a pamper voucher for her favourite hairdresser. Very noice.

The four children had a lovely play together, mostly everyone was nice and behaved. Caleb and Campbell loved jumping on the trampoline, Finn liked being chased and Zali preferred to have cuddles. Twas quite cool, but nice.



We had dinner, the kids had baths, and we packed up and left. The kids drifted off to sleep listening to the Wiggles. We stopped at McDonald’s, Gatton to get a coffee. We needed some help to warm up and keep me awake, man it was a big day! Got home just before 10pm, and basically straight to bed.

Mum and I were up at 5am this morning to go to the markets. Heaps of fresh food and meat on the list. I really think a sleep is on the cards today, I am too old for all this action. I hope everyone has enjoyed their weekend!

Leaf

Some more pics from last Friday when Ida and Macey visited. The girls played inside.



Then we went outside for some fresh air, some photos and . . . .

the odd leaf or two!

Mmmm, crunchy. Maybe like potato chips?

Enjoyed the day inside. Didn't want to brave this weather and be blown away. Caleb had a good day at kindy - he moved up to the Senior Kindy room today! He is very happy to be there cause Riley (his bestie) is already there. This afternoon when I picked him up, Riley's Dad arrived also. Both boys went in to their room to get their bags, and Caleb picked up Riley's bag and said 'Here's your bag Riley'. Riley says 'Thanks'. Then they walk off together. Sweet. Um, hang on . . . Caleb . . . what about your bag?

Just Perfect

Look what was delivered to me this afternoon . . .

from my gorgeous Mel and Brent. Thinking of me, the card said. Total surprise, and what a wonderful surprise to come knocking at your door on a Tuesday. Thank you sweety, they did brighten my day.

And you know what, you brighten my life . . . Thanks for being my friend.

While chatting this morning with a sweet sweet lass, I was paid a compliment. I don't handle compliments very well. I thought about it afterwards, it was really nice to hear the compliment. Thank you.

Bubbles

We had some cheesey tomato spaghetti for lunch. Caleb loved it. He drunk all his popper. He had a red cheesey tomato face. He thought it was funny.

I gave some to Zali. She really liked it. I think she might have gone a little rash-type red around the eyes, but only if you looked hard. That is a great improvement for her eating, and I will certainly give her more of that another day. Yeah! She had some banana after that - yippee! So good that she is eating a fruit and not rashing-up. Maybe she is starting to grow out of her intolerance to some foods. Fingers crossed.

We played on the swings. We played with bubbles. Caleb whinged. Zali ate a leaf or two. They had an afternoon sleep, at the same time! Thank you thank you thank you. I sat and journalled about the kids while I had some quiet, basically cause it was really overdue.

Then we watched Hi-5, played on the swings, played with bubbles, and Caleb whinged. Zali played and ate the bubble blower.

I spent the entire day in my jimmies. When I changed and had a shower before dinner, they were covered in pasta sauce, snot, dribble, wee (not mine!!), arrowroot and cheerios. What a treat.

See?

How could I not take a photo before I put his blanket on?

Does anyone else have 'one of those days'? Today is one of those days for me. From the moment you wake, it starts off. Starts to head downhill. And continues to get worse. And it is probably one of those days when you are least likely to be able to handle it.

Everything is rotten, I am miserable, and as each minute ticks by there seems to be another reason to like myself even less. The little girl is asleep - oh puh-lease let her sleep well and long. The little boy is watching the Wiggles with heavy eyes, and I think when I finish typing this sentence I will go and see if those heavy eyes are now shut and resting.

Yep, he asleep. I had to take a photo, he looks so uncomfortable. And then I covered him with a blanket and nestled a pillow for support.

He must have been tired cause he was whingeing and getting under my skin, which of course would have been very easy. I ask him 'Are you tired?' No. 'Do you want to have a sleep?' No. He wants the Wiggles on, I want to watch The Morning Show on 7. I want to watch the clips of Princess Isabella at her christening and her perfect little family. I want to sit in my jimmies under a blanket, I want to cry at how lovely it all is. Babies are so precious and beautiful, little miracles. On the show they are going back over Mary and Fred's story. How they met, their wedding. I cry on the inside. Cause I have a little boy's head directly in front of mine blocking the television, asking for the Wiggles. I put on the Wiggles, take the little girl up to bed, and miss out on watching other people's wonderful lives.

I have a few minutes of peace (they rarely are asleep at the same time during the day). I can't pick myself up to actually do something I want. I realise I need to talk, and here I am. Talking to you. Well, at some point you will listen (read), but right now I am talking to my computer. I want to cry, I think I need to release some emotion, I am not able to cry. I feel dull and lifeless. Everybody is going about their normal day, everybody seems happy and living their life, moving on. I feel stuck, stuck inside my sorry self. I don't know if everyone is happy. Right now it is me against the whole entire happy world. I hope this wave of sadness is blown away with the winds today, and I can be happy too.

I think I will write two lists. Firstly, to help vent and release some emotion/negative thoughts, I will write what is yuck. What I don't like, what is annoying me, what things could be dragging me down. Then I will write a list of all the good things in my life. I know there is some, but right now I need to refresh my memory. I think I need to put that last list up on my wall. I think I need to make it colourful and have some pretty flowers on it.

The little boy has just walked in, obviously a very short nap. He is something I am lucky to have, so we will have a cuddle and play and I will give him something I don't give myself. Love.